Where've I been?

I'm sure you've been wondering where I've been, why haven't I posted in so long?
Things have been crazy hectic for me lately. We had so many end of the school projects / reports to finish up, now school is out which is great. Baseball has officially ended we had our team party / bbq last Friday. I was in a crunch making custom scrapbooked sports frames for each of the kids on the team as well as ones of the coaches with their sons. I also made a dvd video with highlights of the baseball season which we played at the party for the kids and then they found out they each got a copy. It was a lot of work but the kids really seemed to appreciate it which made it all worth it!

Other things keeping me busy.....I found out on June 11th that the IUI we had done on May 26th worked....I was pregnant. BUT....my beta hcg count came back at 27. At that time it should have been 250-300 according to the nurse who did the insemination. I went back 2 days later and the number almost tripled so that made me feel more optimistic. 2 days later it went over double (it's suppossed to double every 48-72 hours in the beginning weeks of pregnancy) but by Saturday the 17th my number had went down from 179 on Thursday to 122 on Saturday. I was devastated when I got the results. I thought for sure the number would be in the 400 range. Dropping hcg levels according to what I've read online and in books always mean a failing (non-viable) pregnancy. I still had a little hope and was praying that a miracle would happen. But this weekend I started bleeding a lot and the dr's haven't confirmed it yet but I know I miscarried. This is the 3rd time in 1 year. 6th pregnancy total and so far I just have my one son who is 11. It's been a rough couple weeks. Emotions have gone up and down so much. I'm ready to feel "normal" again. I'm thinking it would be good emotionally / physically for me to take a break from the fertility treatments (injections, IUI) for a month or so. I'm sure the dr. will probably even suggest that. I've been feeling pressure to keep going along because our medical coverage that I have from my previous employer runs out in November. I didn't want to waste any time and wanted to be agressive in my treatments since I won't have the opportunity later (we'll have to switch to a regular medical coverage which doesn't have fertility benefits). But the stress and pressure I'm putting on myself can't be helping my situation either so I think I need to take some time off. We'll see what happens.

Now I'm looking forward to the summer, spending some quality time with my son and husband. My son is taking some classes we signed him up for a drawing & sketching class and Algebra Readiness (I still can't get over that he is doing algebra in 6th grade - they didn't teach that to us when I was in 5th-6th grade!). I do not like math at all, never have so I felt it would be better for him to take a class, then hopefully he can teach me. =0) His classes end on the 6th, I was hoping we could go to great america's water park the following week but his friend's mom needs me to watch his friend the whole week after classes get out. His friend broke his arm so he can't do anything near water....I was thinking we could do the movies one day, but am going to have to brainstorm ideas to keep them busy. If you have any suggestion of fun things to do with your kids when they have a cast on....please comment me!!! =0)

Well I'd better go...I promise to keep this updated more often now that things have slowed down for me.

Bye for now!